A Brief Moment ...

Yet another poem I have written so if you don't like poems don't read :D

You shot across my way so fast,
it feels like a brief moment ...
First moments when I saw you,
I was confused and didn't know what to say.
I didn't trust what I saw,
I was skeptical and thought is was an illusion.
As any person would do,
I eventually wen along with it,
believing every word and picture,
wishing every single one of them,
would last just a little bit longer.
Now a change of course has come our way,
making the road unpredictable.
I start to wonder how many storms we will ride through,
or how many beautiful sunsets we'll see together.
I think of how our road together was meant to be ...
Was it meant to be long?
Short?
Smooth or full of bumps?
There are so many things to wonder over,
yet the answer itself,
lays on the blind road ahead ...
In the end,
I guess I don't really care what the eventual outcome is,
I just want you to know,
that for all the bad I am sorry,
and for all the good I am grateful.
Simply,
I just wish for one more brief moment with you ...

Spare me, spare you

(Warrning this is a poem .. just so you know in case you're not a poem person :D)

You see me and you judge me,

you judge me by what i wear,

you judge me by how I act.

But do you know what is inside me?

Do you know how i feel about things,

or what I've been through?

Is it so fun to look down on me

without learning a single fact?

I also feel bad when bad words are said to me,

I might not show it out,

I might even smile and laugh,

but every time I break a little inside.

How do YOU feel when YOU'RE insulted?

It doesn't feel good now does it?

Every bad word you say to me

will eventually  break me down slowly.

So please, not only spare my feelings,

but also everyone elses.

Blowing off steam ..

For those little interested in this blog in particular .. it ain't a story this time so sorry about that in advance :).

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For those rare ones visiting my blog (why the hell do i keep mis-writing the word blog and put the word blong instead O_o ??) I wanna say sorry for not updating this place with anything new. To be honest I am having quite the writers block or am stuck on the same spot for a story that might otherwise be interesting. But I sincerely promise to try and get back to writing stories .. But since I currently don't have one I can perhaps sum up my boring little year for your amusement :D.

TO START WITH ....

2013 beginning (from where I left off) ... I had just recently moved in with my Grandparents since the living conditions in my previous home became unbearable. At first I wasn't confident in living here cause my dear granny is sick. She got bitten by a tick and lost a lot of her memories. Now she has regained most of it and I love her for being her (but being the teenager I am, I still get a bit impatient at some of her teachings as if I were samrter than her ^^'')

2013 Summer !!!! I passed my first year of high school (in Estonia it's 10th grade not 9th like in the states) and I got my first ACTUAL job of a longer period ... i hated the hot days and the cold days .. On cold and windy days the stuff flew around like crazy sometimes and I remember, I had to finish up earlier than usually once. But one warm day there was a Harley Davidson bikers club meeting for somekind of commercial or something down the hill (ooooooh the beautiful bikes :'3 ). And a thir occasion I remember was that my best friend also thought of getting a job there and came there for a trial day .. THE BASTARD PASSED OUT FOR A SECOND !!!! .. I was barely able to finish up my job. In the summer my ex also visited from Finland (i had told him the thing off in April I think) ... The first day he got here I felt like I wanna kill him but hey .. that's my nature :D (plus he gave me reasons) but we spent a week together and had a nice time (no details for you my most likely gossip loving readers :D ). Sent him off and the rest of the summer was pretty uneventful, except I did make a new FRIEND at the end of the summer ( can you believe it? me.. making a friend :') !! ) 

2013 school again Q~Q.... I hated it since day one .. and i haven't gotten a single 5 ( "A" in the us system, 10 in Finnish system .. that's all i know about the systems .. ) as a period grade so far XD .. but I am trying .. To be honset school blends into one great big blob and I can't make out any difference in events XD 

Finally 2014 .. I keep in touch with the idiot from Finland .. and my friend Samuli :D (I keed, my ex is a funny guy at times and we get along :) ). I am also panicking over my research paper due like in March already ( XD ),  I turned legally responsible for myself just a little while back ( well shit, gotta cross so many things i could have gotten away with off my list XD ) .. OH .. and now I actually have someone I can see more often than every 3-4 months. We'll see how it goes but right now its going okay (still waiting for the time I manage to do something horribly wrong .____. )

That's about it for the year I haven't been here (without the ugly detailes :D ) and I hope to post a short story, poem or a story piece (part of a longer work in progress :D )  soon :P